I’ve been awake since 5:45. I lay in bed, wrapped up, trying to sleep, relax, breathe, let go but I couldn’t get my thoughts to stop.
My stomach feels sick. Like there’s a hollow place that needs to be filled and not with food or drink. I take deep breaths and blink my eyes.
My mouth has that sick-in-bed-all-day funky taste that doesn’t go away even after you brush your teeth.
And my damn heart hurts. I think of tearing it out and leaving it behind. Just give it away. Because there must be some way to say goodbye that doesn’t hurt like this.
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October 5, 2006 at 7:09 am
I wish i didn’t know how you felt but i do… and i’m so sorry that you ‘re feeling that way, sweetie…
Actually, scratch previous wish. What I wish i knew is how to ease the fucking pain.
Yes, that’s what i wish.
Yes.